Our brains (or minds), I have discovered can be both, friend and foe. While actively drinking and knowing I had a problem, but still focused on controlling my drinking, not quitting, just controlling, my own mind acted crazy. By crazy I mean it had a double personality. I had my authentic brain that was my friend and spoke to me with my true voice. I also had a booze brain that was my foe and would harmfully manipulate me.

I discovered I had these two opposing brains over a course of about 15 years of abusing alcohol. I’d wake up with regrets from the night before and I was certain I would not drink alcohol all day and maybe not even tomorrow, heck I should abstain until at least Friday. More importantly, I would think, let’s just not drink today.

“So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me.” – Romans 7:21 NIV

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